Well, Kathy and I did a pregnancy test Sunday night when I got back from Fargo. We were both so nervous, I guess we both thought that this might be the time that something would work. It said not pregnant, funny thing is I bet a lot of people have a sigh of relief when they see that. For Kathy and me it was like being punched by Mike Tyson while you are trying to pick yourself up off the mat.
I did some research online Sunday evening and thought that maybe she took it too early and tried to find comfort in the fact that we could still be pregnant. The next day Kathy went in to do a HCG test. The nurse said it needs to be over a value of 2 to be pregnant, and she said ours was below two. She didn't say what it was, all we know is it didn't work.
We knew going into this that the chances of success were only 10%, and we decided that for the small amount we had to invest in trying it, we might as well give it a shot. With IVF the success rates are usually much higher, above 50% and in a couple as young as us it could be over 65%.
It was a rough day, I know it hit Kathy really hard and she was sick on top of it. I brought some flowers home, but it's not much of a consolation. I guess I was really upset, but the thing that kept me from loosing it, is the fact that there are still things we can do. If this would have been the last thing available I would have stayed home from work crying.
I guess God has another adventure in store for us before we can be parents...
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